Cory Richards memoir was heartbreaking. His descriptions of his ongoing battle with bipolar depression and how it affected himself and those in his life were so very harrowing. I cannot imagine the frustration he and his family felt while he was growing up, as well as the women in his life struggling to understand him. Those passages were so very chilling to read. I found myself wondering what direction his life may have taken if his dad had not been so invested in teaching he and his brother winter survival skills during their childhood. His mom and dad seemed to always be there to support him in spite of the challenges inherent in doing so over and over again.
As an adult, his drive to put his life at risk to climb the unforgiving mountains over and over, living in such remote locations and dealing with the excruciating weather, sleeping sitting up on the side of a steep mountain, constantly worrying about an avalanche, all while trying to run from the feelings caused from his bipolar depression will remain with me for many years to come. The realization that he was so adept at chronicling his travels and experiences for National Geographic makes his prowess that much more impressive.
My heart felt for Topo after his years of training and his anticipation for their last climb, he must have felt betrayed, not having any realization of the torturous struggles Cory was trying to overcome. I am hoping that they have since been able to heal their rift.
One of the most impactful passages for me was when he moved to the other side of the world with the woman he loved so dearly in an effort to live their lives, but his inner thoughts, fears, and judgmental feelings destroyed the relationship. His awareness that he had used women in a similar fashion over the years was my first glimmer that he was beginning to realize his impact on those around him.
So many random things will linger with me…his satisfaction with the act of sweeping, ouroboros, the phrase “Go gently!”.
Many many thanks to Cory Richards for having the strength to share his internal struggles, Random House, and NetGalley for providing me with an arc of this eye opening portrayal of living with bipolar.
The Color of Everything: A Journey to Quiet the Chaos Within
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