**Spoiler Alert**
This book was hard for me to rate. I liked the tension, the buildup, the mob/mafia vibes, the smut, the possessive kill her and die trope, and overall I liked the characters. But I have some issues with the plot around why the FMC didn't want to be with the MMC.
I'm going through fertility issues myself and I have no problem reading about miscarriage or struggles with pregnancy as I think it's often not talked about enough.
With that being said, I don't understand why the FMC kept thinking that because she had one miscarriage when she was 18 that she wouldn't be able to have kids again with the MMC. I completely understand her trauma and depression, but she had years of therapy and yet she still for some reason thought that a single miscarriage meant she couldn't have a future child with the MMC?! The author never eluded to their being a complication with her miscarriage to cause infertility. I could ignore it if it was only mentioned once but the FMC mentions this often as being a reason for not wanting to get back together. It also makes me sad to think that after having years of therapy and follow up doctors and gyno appts that the FMC would not understand that miscarriages are very common and a single one does not bear any weight on whether or not you can have a child in the future.
The trauma around a miscarriage is heartbreaking and I think this book really showcased that but if the FMC did all this research when she was pregnant about the right things to eat, etc that they mention, I don't know how she wouldn't have come across articles and information telling her there's no reason to believe that one miscarriage means you can't have children in the future.
Sorry, rant over.
Really good story, very emotionally deep and dark, not just in the smut and plotline. I haven't read anything quite like this so I did enjoy it and would recommend it with the appropriate trigger warnings of course.
Justin
Aryana Parker
Carissa Caulum
Dom